Rambling session: on today, and on “milk and honey”

To be honest, it has been an exhausting day. I’ve just got home from work. The restaurant is so crowded these days thanks to the climate change conference. Well, tiring but at least I got something to keep my mind busy.

It’s so weird because yesterday was still alright. Or at least it seemed to be so. I got my problems solved, had a nice conversation with a friend I haven’t met for a long time, worked without procrastinating and crossed out everything listed on my journal.

Today, on the contrary, was not so productive. Maybe it’s because of my 8 AM class, or maybe it’s just my mood swinging up and down, like it always does. I made a few decisions, can’t tell if it’s the right thing to do or not. One of them is dropping my Medieval Studies course after 5 times attending the class, with a little hope that it would be more interesting the next time. Well, I gave the course 5 chances, and that’s it. I still hate it, so I have to do what makes me feel right.

I spent 3 hours in a café, had two cappuccinos and wanted to be productive. The thing is, you don’t always get what you want. I left the café with my brain feeling heavy, and my mind feeling useless. I headed to the book store looking for something that could lighten my head and my heart a bit. And I chose “milk and honey”.

milk and honey – rupi kaur

I don’t think I am poetic and critical enough to write a review about anyone’s works. Some people really love this collection of poetry, some don’t agree that this is deserved to be called poetry. To me, it actually doesn’t matter. I like the message she wants to deliver and I admire her ability to transfer so much pains and sweetness at the same time and in such few words. I really enjoyed reading it although I actually expected more, but just because I’ve seen her poems all over Facebook and Tumblr being called a masterpiece.

milk and honey – rupi kaur

It’s almost 12 AM now. It’s been really a long day so I’ll end it with 3 little things I appreciated, just to ease my mind:

  1. I’ve found a childhood friend that I’ve lost contact with for almost 10 years.
  2. I’ve just bought a ticket for Oh Wonder’s concert on Monday.
  3. I talked to my mom and dad.


And that’s all. Thank you so much for reading.

Much love.




21 things I’ve learned at 21

Hi all it’s me, long time no talk. I actually have a lot of things to write about but I’m just too lazy to edit photos and stuff.

So yes, I turn 21 today and that’s why I finally got the motivation to write something. Turning 21 is pretty exciting and scary at the same time. I feel like I have to be an “adult” now and it is sure the last thing I want to be. But whatever, I’m also super young and I still have my whole life ahead of me to experience and grow.

Anyway, I just feel like writing something very casual to mark my 21st birthday, so I took a little time to reflect and share with you a few things I’ve learned. So here we go:

  1. Family is all. I love them unconditionally.
  2. Friends. I am really really thankful that I have such amazing and supportive people around me no matter what.
  3. A good coffee determines your productivity all day.
  4. It’s okay to be an introvert. 
  5. It’s okay to be average. 
  6. No one’s perfect. We make mistakes, a lot of mistakes. But that’s the way we grow up.
  7. Everyone has a different point of view. Don’t force anyone to think the same way as you do.
  8. Treat yourself. Treat yourself well. Here I mean with delicious food.
  9. Modern family is a great series. So is Friends.
  10. Have fun and enjoy being young. 
  11. Stepping out of my comfort zone is actually not that bad. It’s pretty scary and I’m still practicing it, but I like how it feels at the end.
  12. Reading is important.
  13. Always appreciate the present and cherish every moment. Nobody knows how things will turn out.
  14. Procrastinating is not a good thing but it works sometimes. I seriously need to manage my time better though.
  15. Moisturizing and sunscreen are essential.
  16. You have to let go at some points. Things, and people as well.
  17. Don’t let other people make you feel bad about yourself. They simply don’t have the right to do that under any circumstances. You don’t live to satisfy anyone and there will always be people judging you if you don’t have money, if you are not skinny, if you do not fit in, etc. Well, screw them.
  18. Traveling opens your eyes and your mind. 
  19. As a waitress/waiter, smile when you serve others, it will make the food taste better. And also, as a guest, smile and say thank you to the waiters/waitresses, it will make their work day easier. I’ve learned this thanks to my part time job.
  20. A clean house is key. I miss my squeaky clean home so much. I only realized this after living with two male flatmates and they never clean after cooking and that just irritates me more than anything. Sadly, I cannot afford an apartment alone so I have no other choice but living with that mess and never cook.
  21. I still have a lot to learn. 

That’s all. Thank you so much for reading.

Happy birthday to me.

Much love,


an untitled poem



Another day’s just gone away

without saying —




It’s time —

to sleep.

It’s finally when I can live

my imaginary life.



Sunshine will softly touch my lips,

the wind will slowly kiss my hair

and the daisies will gently –

lie down next to me.



We’ll talk til’ eventide,

then the wind will start to scratch my skin

and the daisies will suddenly cry.

And there’re droplets — in my eyes.



Is it dawn, or is it bright?

Is it day or is it night?

Am I awake or am I asleep?

Or I am —

living someone else’s life.



A random poem I wrote on a random night (that I’m too embarrassed to put it on facebook)


July 2017

let’s talk about feelings

So we’ve just hugged goodbye. Me and my mom.

I really thought that I would be fine but I guess I am not. Goodbye hugs mean hello to emptiness, hello to being alone, hello to missing everyone and everything.

Not that I don’t like hugging people goodbye but it just irritates me so much when something makes me turn into a weak, emotional and vulnerable bitch. I like being strong. Even when people say that I’m cold, emotionless or unapproachable, I’m totally fine with it. Actually I wish I could be like that because dealing with my emotions was never easy for me.

Thinking about this makes me realize that I’ve always denied my negative feelings. I’m scared to face those “difficult thingies”  so I would just pretend that they do not really matter and say to myself from time to time that I am doing well, I am happy and I am “fine”.

One reason why I hate being alone is that those annoying stuff keep coming back to me. That is why I always need someone to talk to, why I always keep myself busy with books and korean dramas or netflix. I need those distractions to push my negative feelings away and wish that they would just disappear themselves as life goes on. Well, they won’t, as I know now.

I thought I do understand myself but seems like I don’t. Sad huh?

Anyway, I don’t think I’m ready to absorb those emotions so I’m just going to write this note, post it on my blog and then sleep my mind off. It’s not healthy, I know. But that’s my way dealing with it and I know I will be just fine.

Thank you for reading.


voorlinden museum | netherlands

One thing I love about studying in Germany is our 2-month-break between each semester. I believe new experiences and adventures breathe fresh life into our heart and soul so I always try to “run away” whenever I am able to do so.

I took a bus to Amsterdam to visit my best friend right after the last final exam. We spent a day to go to Voorlinden Museum in Den Haag (which was a tough trip to be honest). It was a dark and stormy day, we missed a train, got delayed and we were freezing. However, the museum was worth it. It was really impressive, inspiring and we were like two excited kids running everywhere and posing in every corner.

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– dgna – 

new year’s resolutions | 2017

Happy New Year Lovelies,

I wish you all a wonderful 2017 with your family, friends and your loved ones. There will be so many challenges and opportunities coming up that will allow us to grow and learn more and more. My last year was beyond awesome and I definitely hope that I could keep 2017 going that great.

*A sum up of my 2016: Hey 2016 | dgnaxoxo*

It’s finally a new life chapter and we’ve all got new stories to write. It really has me thinking about my goals, about things that I want to do and places that I want to visit. So here are my 10 things I want to accomplish in 2017:

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#1. A new language: I tell myself so many times that I want to pick up another language but it always ends up with me spending way too much time on the internet (shame on me, i know). Anyway, I do really want to be able to speak several languages and I think I will start with either Spanish or Korean this year. I am interested in both but I probably should not be too greedy because I also need to work a lot more on my German.

#2. Dance classes: I really miss grooving, moving and practicing. I am taking a hip hop class but it is going to end in February and I also want to learn something new. This is a little bit embarrassing to say but I want to take a pole fitness class. It will be really really hard for me because I am totally not confident with my own body but I’ve wanted to do pole dancing for years so I just think that if I don’t start this year, I’ll never do it. Challenge accepted!

#3. Guitar: I don’t know if it’s too late to learn a new instrument but I’ve always loved watching people singing and playing guitar and I’ve always imagined myself being able to do that. So if I have time, I would love to take guitar lessons (we all know that “I don’t have time” is a terrible excuse).

#4. Travelling: There are so many alluring cities and countries that make me want to hop on a plane immediately and go there. Unfortunately, my bank account doesn’t seem to support the idea. So well, here is my travel bucket list for 2017:

  • North Rhein-Westphalia, Germany: It’s not really travelling but there are some cities near Bonn like Cologne, Düsseldorf, Dortmund,… which are definitely worth spending my weekends.
  • Belgium: I swear I have to go to Belgium this year. It takes less than 4 hours by bus from where I live to Brussels and Bruges and the tickets are not expensive at all. I got my best friend living in Amsterdam and we want to go there together, so hopefully we will make our first trip happen.
  • Amsterdam, Netherlands: Visited Amsterdam once but I haven’t explored the whole city yet. I bet it will look much more beautiful in spring or summer so maybe I’ll see you again, Amsterdam! (actually I want to visit my friend but I don’t want to say that, too cheesy eww)
  • Copenhagen, Denmark: I don’t know why but I’ve always wanted to go to Copenhagen since day 1. Colourful waterside townhouses, museums and galleries, boats and canals,… Copenhagen will be such an amazing destination for summer time. All I need is a travel partner. Or should I try travelling solo for the first time?
  • Rome, Italy: Tickets booked today! I want to visit Cinque Terre as well but I’m afraid I do not have much time.

#5. Part-time job: I am having one that allows me to work from home with flexible schedules but I actually want a job which requires communication so that I could improve my German speaking skills. And I need money for my trips. And cosmetics.  And clothes. And FOOD! (there’s just never enough money for food. NEVER!)

#6. Be healthy: I swear some of my friends are definitely laughing right now since I say this every single year (or even every single day). I am not going to promise anything because I don’t believe in myself either. I just can’t give up on food and chocolate and all those loves of my life so (perhaps) I would (try to) work out more. (To be honest, I have absolutely no motivation to get myself out to the gym). And drink more water, of course.

#7. Books: 2016 was the year that I tried to read more than before. I need to develop a better reading habit and read even more.

#8. Blogging: To open a blog is one of my 2016’s resolutions and I’m proud that I finally made it by the end of the year. I hope that I would be able to keep this blog going with fresh content and also with better writing skill.

#9. Stop procrastinating: This is the hardest thing for me because I got used to procrastinating since forever. I really do feel like a mess sometimes (or always) and the stress is so real. I also want to start planning things or try bullet journaling. Hope it would help.

#10. Call my family more: I feel very guilty not calling my family as much as I should. I miss them but I rarely call them first and it actually makes me feel super super bad. I’ll sure call them more often. Mark my words.

Well, that’s it for my new year’s resolutions! I think that I will be more inclined to make these happen if I write them down and share them with you guys. I would also love to hear yours! Let’s check it again together at the end of this year!

Stay beautiful,


current skincare routine winter 2016

Hi Lovelies,

I hope you all have had a wonderful weekend. In today’s blogpost I am going to share with you guys all the skincare products that I have been using in the winter time.

About my skin: I think I had terribly oily and acne-prone skin in middle school and my skin type somehow changed to dry combination skin when I got older. I did not use any skincare products until I came to Germany, when my skin reached its worst state: red, dry, sensitive, flaky and chapped (I swear it cracked when I smiled). Then my cousin let me try her neutrogena cream, which made me realise how magical skincare products were. Mind blown!

It’s almost 2 years now since I started a proper skincare routine and I’m so thankful that I did it because I’m much happier with my skin now (although it’s absolutely not something good for my bank account).

Okay I should write about my routine now or this post will be way to long !

Step 1: Double Cleansing

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DHC Deep Cleansing OilThis is already my second bottle. It removes all of my makeup easily and gently and doesn’t irritate my skin at all. I find this product is rather pricey but I had to purchase it again. I tried some cheaper alternatives  but the one from The Face Shop clogged my pores and broke me out while The Body Shop Camomile silky cleansing oil has an unpleasant scent and it’s not so effectively when it comes to waterproof mascara.

Kiehl’s Ultra Facial CleanserI’ve been using this cleanser only for a few weeks. I like it but I don’t love it. It’s a foaming cleanser containing alcohol so it more or less strips my natural oils and makes it a little bit dry afterwards. Probably not going to buy it again.

Step 2: Toner


Hada Labo Hydrating LotionThis product is my skin’s best friend. It contains no alcohol, fragrance, colorants,… and moistures my skin without any irritation. Nothing, but love.

Step 3: Exfoliating

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Paula’s Choice Skin Perfecting 2% BHA Liquid: It was a little bit scary putting acid on my face for the first time but this chemical exfoliant changed my life 2 years ago (when I had like 2kg blemishes on my face). I use this 2 – 3 times/ week before bed. It helps unclogging my pores and making my skin smoother. I hate the scent though, it smells like nail polish remover.

Step 4: Serum

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InstaNatural Vitamin C Serum: I have only used this Vitamin C Serum for a couple of weeks but I think my skin is getting brighter and it also lightens my acne scars. This serum absorbs super quickly on my skin, doesn’t break me out and I also don’t feel tingling at all like when I used the OST C21.5.  One more plus point for this serum is it doesn’t need to be kept in the fridge since it’s a different form of Vitamin C.

Step 5: Essence

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Benton Snail Bee High Content Essence: I personally think that this product is a little bit overhyped. Although it does a good job hydrating my skin and improving newly damaged skin area, redness around my nose area is not noticeably reduced and I’m also not sure about the skin-lifting and whitening functions as written on the product. Anyway, for all these natural ingredients with such a low price, I couldn’t ask for more.

Benton Aloe Propolis Soothing Gel: Another product from Benton. This gel helps soothing my active breakouts and also helps them heal. It’s really relaxing applying this product because of the cooling effect and it also absorbs really quickly.

Step 6: Moisturizer

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Claire’s Guerisson 9 Complex Horse Oil Cream: I bought this when I was in South Korea and this product has saved my flaky skin in winter time. It absorbs really quickly, doesn’t greasy at all and has a nice scent. Plus, it looks fancy and comes with a spoon so that I don’t have to use my finger and let all the cream goes onto my nail (gross). Anyway, I highly recommend this cream for people who have super dry skin like me. It really helps.

Step 7: Spot treatment

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The Body Shop Tea Tree Oil: I have a love – hate relationship with this product. As soon as I find a pimple popping on my skin, I have to grab this product immediately. I apply the oil directly on my pimple with a q-tip and it really calms the pimple, reduces its size and also redness. What I hate about this product is it dries my skin out when my skin absolutely doesn’t need anymore dryness. And I hate this stupid packaging.

Step 8: Sunscreen (Daytime)

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Shiseido WetForce Expert Sun Aging Protection Lotion Plus SPF 50+: This is expensive as hell but it’s really worth it. Best sunscreen I’ve ever used. It’s not sticky, chalky or greasy at all, it’s matte, smells super nice and absorbs super quickly. It makes my skin a little bit white after applying but then it blends into my skin after about 10 minutes. Again, the stupid packaging makes it really hard to control the amount of product that I want to pour out and it gets really messy.

So yeah that’s it. I actually don’t use all these products twice a day. In the morning I would like to keep it simple (or I’ll be late for school) by using only toner, sometimes Vitamin C serum, moisturizer and sunscreen. I hope you guys enjoyed reading my routine as well as my quick reviews about these products. Please tell me if you have any better products to recommend, I would love to try it out.

Thank you very much and stay beautiful,


it’s getting christmassy


Happy December, lovelies! I still cannot believe that Christmas is just around the corner and 2016 is coming to an end. Time flies.

This is so far my second Christmas in Germany and it’s still obviously something new for me. To be honest the holiday feelings make me want to skip classes and lay in bed watching movies and eating and online shopping all day (with an empty wallet). My classmates and flatmates will all come back home to celebrate Christmas with their family. I, unfortunately, cannot. However, I’ll go to Hamburg reuniting with some of my best friends, which is pretty exciting as well. I’m really thankful to have those with me during holiday seasons (and also other seasons) otherwise I’ll definitely turn into a lonely zombie feeling jealous with people who are able to come back home and then eat my sadness away. No doubt.

Anyway, I decided to go for a walk through the christmas market yesterday to enjoy the exciting atmosphere and I would love to share it with you guys. There are a lot of super cute things, meticulous handmade stuff and also, a lot lot of delicious food that I can’t just pass by without buying anything (everything actually). Here’s my money guys. Just take it all.



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I hope you liked these photos, which can be seen as an excuse for my cutie little belly fat.

Stay beautiful,


random thoughts

I didn’t mean to start my blog with such personal thing but yeah, whatever.

I have to admit that I’m pretty jealous with all the people who know what they love to do, who they want to be and are able to pursue their “passion”. At this point of life (sounds weird), I can feel the pressure that I actually have to start to “care” about my future. The fact that I am and I will always be the one and only person who has responsibility for my life just freaks me out sometimes because I seem “chill”. I don’t have any plans. I don’t know what I will be doing in the next 3 years, 5 years, 10 years. I mean, most people don’t, I know that.

I’m a little bit “behind” comparing to my friends. Most of them are now in the 3rd year or last year of university meanwhile I’ve just started my studying for a month, which means they will probably go to work and earn money in the next 2 years while I will still take classes everyday. That thought makes me feel kind of lost and “useless” sometimes. Under family pressure and society’s pressure in our culture, I’m supposed to graduate just in time as my fellows, get a job so that I’ll be able to feed myself and don’t have to sleep under a bridge. And, you know, “settle down”.

Then I think why do I have to compare myself to others? I’ve just lived a month and 13 days of my 20s. I don’t like the idea of “settling down” as much as I don’t like onion (so relevant I know). Maybe because I’m still too young to think about it but I mean, considering the fact that we only have one life to live, I would love to try different things until I know what I want to do. Maybe if I hate my major I will quit and go for a degree in mathematics (I can’t think of anything else). Who knows? I want to try as many things as I can and find out what suits me, what interests me, what motivates me everyday and what I can call “passion”. It doesn’t mean that I give up on things easily and go try new stuff and then give up again when it’s hard and try new stuff again and again and again. I am and I will be responsible for what I chose and do it sincerely. As much as I can.

I’m happy for those who have found and lived their dream. Those haven’t, just like me, don’t worry because I believe one day we will, it’s only a matter of time. Life is full of opportunities.

I’m still young. You’re still young. It’s totally okay to feel lost and uncertain. Just live the life you want so that you won’t be regret 30 years later. I don’t write this to tell or to “teach” anyone how they should live. I write this to encourage myself to be brave stepping out of my comfort zone and taking chances, to believe in my choices, to put my puzzled mind at ease and of course, it would be great if this post also could have a positive influence on any of you reading this.

Thank you very much for reading my first rambling stuff. Have to go back to my literature homework now 🙂

Stay beautiful,